Feeling that I owe you guys a Blog at least.....

So I know I was supposed to blog after effects well lets just say that encounter was "unsuccessful"...I wonder why...nothin' to do with the fact that I am a 5 times darker shade than the prospective....hmm and his mother could not stop rubbing it in my face....


Anyways besides the point....History. End. of. Moving on.......(very slowly).


So lets update everyone on the last 6 months to date....can you believe we just had 2010 start and already we are less than 1 month away from half way through the year....time is going superfast...SubhanAllah. Anyways so the big age change will occur in 1.5 months - 27 , still not married, still looking for a job ....oh but have perfected my in-house cuisine skills so that has to count for something. 


So I have not really progressed personally....except I think I am stepping into the "I dont care anymore" zone. 


So whether I do care in the next couple of weeks...will determine whether I choose to post another blog....hmm


anyways....I need to go cook.....Toodles. 

Am getting Cold Feet....(Literally)

Yes in the literal sense of the word....my room is bloody freezing and my feet are numb cold with two pairs of socks on!


Jokes aside though.....I have a potential rishtha engagement this weekend and well its been a while since I have "played the field" so to speak and I am nervous so yeh cold feet in the non-literal sense as well.  


I just recently have been attending some practimate seminars which gives women (mainly 25-35) tips on how to approach a guy in the "halaal" way and ask the right questions and answer the questions to what he wants to hear....i picked up a few tips I must say. I learnt that my personality should not be a job application .... well this is a bit dubious...I mean if you have sat through one then you know that the mother in law interviews you like it was a job application!


Well I have been unemployed for nearly 4 months now so although i knew this day was coming...I somehow felt this urge to not really be serious about it and just wing it? I am slightly annoyed at the situation though..I mean I really am genuinely busy this sunday and next sunday with an ALM course but these two sundays are the only days that they can come...I cant even begin to tell you how I cannot miss this one as my mum will literally unleash the apocalypse on me and that my friends aint going to be pretty, considering last time I was also at a course and I said no. 


But its timing right? and Qadr right? well thats what I keep telling myself. 


Okay so I have literally a few days to not only plan a seminar and make sure everything comes together but also get my interview mode and questions in check ... plus my mum wants me to lose a stone in 3 days?! lol...I mean seriously...why do I even bother? I am only going to put it back on after I get Married? innit? I think all Married women can attest to that?


So I guess I will blog the after-effects? Till next week....

Leme 'splain you.....

So yes I have not blogged for a while and not because I didn't want too just because I could not be bovvered and I was busy....


Anyways the thing is right, I have all of a sudden become a social butterfly - yes - me. I know its hard to believe as those of you who know me...I prefer "me-time". I have just come back from an exhausting 10 days of pure Ilm...and yes people the one thing that has stayed in my head is: 

"The Ilm is in the Ilm" (not in the text) - AE

I have now realised that my social diary is packed for the next few months to say the least. A friends' mehndi is this weekend her walima the following and then another mate is getting married last weekend of Jan. Then our next seminar is last two weekends of Feb and I am sure I have to fit in a rishta meeting in there between then. 

But lo and behold I get news that maybe my baby sister "might" get married before me....hang on...that situation is familiar...oh wait...my other baby sister DID get married before me. Hmmm....so my mum asks me if I would mind coz the possibility at this point is that my other sister will probably get married before me....and so I say: "no mum I dont really care" - was that my defence mechanism to say "yes I do care?" and I am doomed never to get married?! maybe a lil melodramatic but I sit here thinking to myself "does it bovver me?"

[5 hrs later]

Still thinking......lol. We can weigh up the pros and cons of this situation...

Pros: 

* I finally get the master bedroom after 26 years and cupboard space beyond my dreams

* I have my parents to myself.....

* Always save the best till last...my husband best be tall, handsome and rich (in no particular order) 

Cons:

* People think there is something wrong with me I am not married therefore I must like girls...?! lol [ note: I dont!]

* more housework? always a bummer

* people still think there is something wrong with me 

Hmm interesting scenarios. I think this whole thing is giving me a inferiority complex which I need to now work on before my mum thinks I am falling into depression and afraid I will start jumping out of windows again. The crux of the matter is that I am okay with it. I am enjoying the benefits of being single and not turning into the "Surrendered Wife" ( a book that I got as a gift). I am not succumbing to the annoyances of the male gender. I am thinking about number 1 and that is me. I like the idea of not having to share my bed with someone because he is is intruding into my personal space. I like the idea that I have a certain freedom that my parents give me and I like my own company. I can see myself criticising my husband because he did not put the toilet roll the right way or why did he put the dishes in the sink when the dishwasher was empty or why he didnt call me when he decided to have a night out with the lads.


Not the type of wife I want to be but hey thats why I am reading the "Surrendered Wife".


Until the next blog.......