Leme 'splain you.....

So yes I have not blogged for a while and not because I didn't want too just because I could not be bovvered and I was busy....


Anyways the thing is right, I have all of a sudden become a social butterfly - yes - me. I know its hard to believe as those of you who know me...I prefer "me-time". I have just come back from an exhausting 10 days of pure Ilm...and yes people the one thing that has stayed in my head is: 

"The Ilm is in the Ilm" (not in the text) - AE

I have now realised that my social diary is packed for the next few months to say the least. A friends' mehndi is this weekend her walima the following and then another mate is getting married last weekend of Jan. Then our next seminar is last two weekends of Feb and I am sure I have to fit in a rishta meeting in there between then. 

But lo and behold I get news that maybe my baby sister "might" get married before me....hang on...that situation is familiar...oh wait...my other baby sister DID get married before me. Hmmm....so my mum asks me if I would mind coz the possibility at this point is that my other sister will probably get married before me....and so I say: "no mum I dont really care" - was that my defence mechanism to say "yes I do care?" and I am doomed never to get married?! maybe a lil melodramatic but I sit here thinking to myself "does it bovver me?"

[5 hrs later]

Still thinking......lol. We can weigh up the pros and cons of this situation...

Pros: 

* I finally get the master bedroom after 26 years and cupboard space beyond my dreams

* I have my parents to myself.....

* Always save the best till last...my husband best be tall, handsome and rich (in no particular order) 

Cons:

* People think there is something wrong with me I am not married therefore I must like girls...?! lol [ note: I dont!]

* more housework? always a bummer

* people still think there is something wrong with me 

Hmm interesting scenarios. I think this whole thing is giving me a inferiority complex which I need to now work on before my mum thinks I am falling into depression and afraid I will start jumping out of windows again. The crux of the matter is that I am okay with it. I am enjoying the benefits of being single and not turning into the "Surrendered Wife" ( a book that I got as a gift). I am not succumbing to the annoyances of the male gender. I am thinking about number 1 and that is me. I like the idea of not having to share my bed with someone because he is is intruding into my personal space. I like the idea that I have a certain freedom that my parents give me and I like my own company. I can see myself criticising my husband because he did not put the toilet roll the right way or why did he put the dishes in the sink when the dishwasher was empty or why he didnt call me when he decided to have a night out with the lads.


Not the type of wife I want to be but hey thats why I am reading the "Surrendered Wife".


Until the next blog.......